Feelmyself ((install)) [ 90% ULTIMATE ]

Feeling yourself is a return. A quiet rebellion. A way of saying: I’m still here. And I’m paying attention.

— Someone learning to feel themselves again feelmyself

Lately, I’ve been trying to feel myself again. Not in the cheeky way the phrase gets used online (though, honestly, a little of that too—reclaiming your body is part of it). But in the literal sense: feeling myself. My moods. My edges. My quiet nos and softer yeses. It didn’t happen all at once. I just started defaulting to what was expected. I answered texts in a voice that wasn’t quite mine. I said “I don’t mind” when I did mind. I filled silence with plans, and plans with exhaustion. Feeling yourself is a return