He laughed, a genuine laugh, and for a moment she saw him as he was: not a monster, but a man who had won. “Do you want to die?” he asked.
She grew thin. Her hair, once washed in rosewater, was shorn for lice. Her hands, once trained for the harp, became calloused and cracked, the nails broken and black. She ate what the soldiers ate—gray stew with gristle, bread that had to be dipped in water to be chewed. She slept on a pile of rags behind the cookhouse, waking each morning to the sound of a rooster and the smell of her own sweat. the vulgar life of a vanquished princess
She considered the question. She thought of the pickled head of her father. She thought of the silk cord that never came. She thought of the cook’s gray stew and the pig that would eat her if she fell in the mud and broke her neck. He laughed, a genuine laugh, and for a